A General Record

Some of this will be a repeat in info... I was keeping my own record before I was able to get my stories I wrote at Natalie's office.

09/10/12

I read in “The Reconnection” about finding a practitioner near my area on the website. Already mystified by the book and in love, I typed in my location to see if I could sate my curiosity by poking my nose around a little. But finding a healer just down the road from me, I suddenly felt brave and called her. My call with her gave me the enthusiasm to convince Daniel that we could afford the $75 and I scheduled myself for later that day.
Natalie was not like Dr. Pearl, but I quietly forgave her the personality flaws she exhibited and allowed my expectations of this visit to be a little less narrow, hoping for something wonderful. She explained a great deal to me, told me stories of other visits with clients and finally started. I was a bit nervous to have her ex and son visiting just outside the door (it was open) but I told myself that she trusted them so I should too. I spent the first 5 min of our healing session together, trying to relax properly. I began to feel an urge or pulling sensation at my wrists, as if they wanted to raise up and cross, ending with my arms folded over my chest pharaoh style. I told myself to not move, not interfere with the process and just let whatever will happen... to happen. But when my mental mind finally calmed down, I realized that this WAS the process and so I went with it. I was surprised how right it felt to move my arms and let them roam about, here and there. Sometimes I was reaching for something, other times I let them dangle over the edge of the recliner. Still in the early phase, before I truly let go, I tried visualizing. I learned later to just let go and not try so hard.
I saw a black bird flying, he appeared to not be black really... more like a cutout or silhouette. Then there was a flock of birds and they formed together to become a man. He walked towards me, black too, till he stepped into the light. The friendly, handsome face of a blonde man appeared before me. He had very blue eyes and he smiled at me in a familiar way. I called him “son” though I couldn't say that I understood why. He began to recede into the background once more and I reached out for him but he was too far away.

(record the rest from healer's notes)

09/11/12

The healer told me to notice any changes that came about in my life to discover what the healing had done. At first, checking in I found not much out of the ordinary. I ran with a little more energy and my right wrist no longer hurt or was weak. Then I realized there WAS something different, something inside. I began to notice things here and there and related them to Daniel. I told him that it felt like my DNA chain back to the ancestors was cleansed somewhat, like Family Matrix tends to do. I felt joyful. I felt at peace. Could this really be the healing? I had heard that Reconnective Healing is permanent and exactly what needs to be addressed at the time. How could peace be permanent? I always thought of it as a temporary lift, no matter how powerful at the moment it came.
After reading some more in the book, I came to the instructional portion. I decided to try it out when Bella failed to stay down for her nap. Normally, that is the end of attempts that can be made for the day- she's often quite stubborn about naps. But this time I sat on the bed and asked, “Do you mind if I work on you?” She said no and I began to feel for anything I could find. Following Dr. Pearl's guidelines as best I could, I worked different areas. I asked her how she felt, she said, “I feel good” with a kind of sigh, she laid down. I worked from the head of the bed now. She craned her head around now and then to see what I was doing and I told her, “I'm still here.” Then, as if by magic, she was resting peacefully with a little scattering of the tale-tell signs of Reconnective Healing, a few twitches and breathing changes. Did I attune to this specific frequency just by reading the book? Or was this just regular old energy work? Either way, I felt good about how it went.

09/12/12

Last night, Daniel and I lay in bed after a long day. We rested, not quite asleep, not quite awake. It was in that half-in half-out state that I dreamt that I was working on myself. I noticed my body doing the muscle twitches as I lay in bed (guess I was still awake enough to feel the tremors) and I wondered if I was activating the energy on my own or if, like during my session, I was just continuing to process even after the Healers hands were down. I thought I had seen Dan twitch too; a minute later it was over and I woke suddenly. He was awake too, I could tell, so I asked him how he felt. He mumbled a “fine” and kind of went back to sleep. Had I imagined it?
All during the day, I checked in to further understand the changes that had come. It wasn't just a general lightening of my life, as other healing modalities often give. I felt like a great weight had been lifted from my heart. Gone were the tangled feelings of stress, worry and depression. These had shadowed my every thought, every word for nearly my entire life. Gone! I felt intrinsically good about the world, myself, and everyone in it. I understood the universe on a simpler, more clear plane of thought. And, for the first time ever, I was truly LIVING all the positive things I had learned throughout my life. I felt FREE!

09/14/12

I got laryngitis for a few days and was thinking “this is too soon! The weather is so warm out, why am I sick?” Had one day of bad neck pain on the right, went to bed with a headache and aching body. Woke up the next day feeling sick but doing better. Both days I thought I was being relatively stress-free but I was trying to keep the house clean for a guest James Owen hooked me up with, Tracy Mangum (wife to successful author Lisa Mangum). On the third day, I just rested all day and felt fine, but washed out. By now, I decided that my sickness was part of the healing process... to let go of my old habits. Its a sickness I've gotten to varying degrees every year since I moved here to Utah ten years ago. Its related to a lot of “feeling sorry for myself” and “inability to speak up” and “must control everything”. Now, on monday (sept. 17, 2012) I feel nearly 100% but I have been feeling light-headed the past few days and it just is hanging on. Reminds me of when I was pregnant, they thought I might be a little anemic or possibly had an inner ear problem, either one from the dizziness I kept feeling. I'm tired of being lazy now, so I'm going to work on my book (finally) after hearing a few good tips from Lisa's pleasant husband, Tracy. He seems like a great guy I hope he visits again. Looking forward to my next session on wednesday afternoon!